The Jewish Lovebirds

While I was back home in New York for Thanksgiving, I got myself a handy little Flipcam. I tested the camera out by interviewing my 84 year-old grandmother, Nan, and her 83 year-old boyfriend, Lionel, about their Jewish heritage and how they met. Below are the best segments of our conversation. You will probably notice how much they bring out the worst in each other. In fact, it's fair to say they down right can't stand each other. Lionel is, what my grandmother calls, a "Jewish American Prince" and a "nudge". Lionel has always been the jokester and the teaser and my grandmother, being the prim and proper lady that she is, has become less and less tolerable of his behavior over the years. Lionel is the sort of person while dining with my grandmother in a public restaurant, yell, "Help! Help! This little old lady is trying to grope me!" In fact, Lionel is often kicked out of public places much to my grandmother's embarrassment. Unfortunately, Lionel's behavior has become slightly more erratic since being diagnosed in the beginning stages of Alzheimer's. Also, I'd like to note, my grandmother is particularly cantankerous in this video because she was having extreme back pain and couldn't walk well.

I can't wait to get old!!!

As the Jewish Lovebirds explain, they met around thirteen years ago when my grandmother sued Lionel after she got her heel stuck in a tile of a building he owned and fell and broke her wrist. Nobody really liked Lionel, including my grandmother, but he became a family fixture soon enough and I can't imagine him not being around. He still is a pain in the ass, but thinking about the nightmarish journey he and my grandmother are about to embark on breaks my heart.

To Get Old

my grandmother at 19 years of age

Yesterday, a pictorial featuring French photographer Sacha Goldberger's 91 year-old grandmother, Frederika, as a superhero made the rounds. It was impossible not to melt when looking at the distinct woman's face. The story of 91 years and her escape from Nazism and Communism play out in every crevice and line on her face. Goldberger came up with the idea after he noticed that his grandmother was feeling "lonely and depressed" and after some "reluctance" he finally convinced Frederika to participate in the project.

Looking at this slide show made me think about my 83 year-old grandmother, Nan, and her recent bout of depression. Depression might not be the right word for it. Sheer boredom, having no job to wake up to, no family to take care of, realizing that most of your friends are dead, and dealing with a domestic partner that is in the beginning stages of Alzheimer's Disease is more like it.

my grandmother in her 40's

I talk to my grandmother multiple times in a week. She is my second mom and outside of a few stories that would only make her stay up and worry all night (something that she is very good at), I share everything with her. When I call her, I can't wait to hear the enthusiastic, "Hi sweetheart!" on the other line. I reply with with, "Hi grandma! How are you?" but I always know the line that comes next- a pause, then a faint, "Ok". This is not a jubilant "ok", this is a my-life-is-just-ok "ok". I usually ask her what is wrong and she repeats, "I'm bored. My life is boring." No matter how many times she says this it never fails to bother me. Though my mother lives across the street and I call her often, that will never change the fact that she is 83 years old and so many aspects of her life are different now.

I listen to her as she explains her frustration that she is no longer in complete control of her body and mind. Recently she had Carpal Tunnel surgery and currently has a slipped disc in her back. Though she is stoic and a martyr in all the best ways a Jewish woman can be, she can't help but voice her "disgust" that she just can't get up and go go go like she used to. I point out that she's 83, goes to the gym 3-4 days a week, and she always looks like she just stepped out of a movie. However, that is not good enough for my grandmother and I believe that this tenacity is what has kept her so vivacious for all these years.

When my grandmother and I have these conversations I try to put myself in her shoes. Becoming old is something we all do, but not something we understand until we experience it. I try thinking about watching the people that I love come and go, to wake up every morning feeling that there is little to look forward to, that the highlights of my day consist of going to the grocery store, that I can't walk like I used to, talk like I used to, and I'm just plain old tired. Of course this picture is not the same for all senior citizens, but it is for most, if not worse, and I think about the lack of patience we have as a society for the elderly. How our lack of understanding and fear of getting old makes us react negatively towards the people who often need our help the most.

my 83 year-old, plastic surgery-less grandmother, photo taken last december

I will be seeing my grandmother for the first time in almost a year next week. I'm beyond excited. I'm also scared. Scared to see her with a little less spunk in her step and a little more tiredness in her eyes. I'm also scared to see her partner, my surrogate grandfather, Lionel, going through forgetting our names, not waking up until noon, and telling my grandmother that he wants to die.

I'm scared because when I see her, I want do everything for her. I want to take her boredom away. I want to bring her friends back. I want to make me a little girl again. I want to take her all over the world. I want to make her a superhero...but I can't.


Are/were close with your grandparents? What are your thoughts on aging?